I am nothing close to a fashionista.

I have loads of clothes that I bought with the intention of being “aesthetic”, but what is the point of aesthetic when I can’t even style my clothes?

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The picture shown above is my outfit of the day. I stepped out of my comfort zone and actually LAYERED my clothes for once. And the boots???? Bright pink platform boots that I considered selling. Until today, I never had the intention to wear them. I thought I needed to wait for the perfect items to hit my wardrobe first. I didn’t think of wearing these bright pink platforms with black clothes *facepalm*.

While I Love my body, I just don’t quite know how to dress this new version of myself.

– Fairy

Part of my styling issue is getting used to my new body. I had a 9 month pregnancy that led to an emergency c-section. I have been put on meds that cause weight gain. While I LOVE my body, I just don’t quite know how to dress this new version of myself. There are so many articles out there on finding out what your body shape is and what clothes flatter that most.

Here’s the thing… I DO NOT like the clothes suggested. It just is not my style. Isn’t that just wonderful. Then I end up back to square one.

In a world of social media, it is so easy to think that you have to fit into an aesthetic…

– Fairy

Aside from styling this amazing,new version of myself, my problem with styling is also my fear of being seen. Thankfully, I’m learning that there is too little time on this earth to not wear the things that make me feel good. Dressing in what makes me happy. In a world of social media, it is so easy to think that you have to fit into an aesthetic, that I love too many “clashing” styles. What’s wrong with dressing fairycore one day and gothic another? The answer? Absolutely nothing. I don’t have to fit into a box. I just need to be my authentic self.

All of that to say, I’m uncomfortable with my decision to wear bright pink platform shoes today, but that’s the point. I love how my body looks, what I have on and what I am learning about myself.